One more year

I won't start this entry by saying "It's been a long time since I wrote something here" or "It's been a while". No. I just did. Ugh. Back to the point.


Charlotte Church's playing "Lullaby" will perhaps be succeeded by a pop song. It's five in the morning and I've been up since 1:30 AM. Posts of 'Congratulations!' and 'Good luck!' flood my news feed. Not for me, though. All these things pushed me to write this down. Still with me? Good.


Today, March 29 2012, Thursday, will be the 7th Commencement Exercises of my dear Alma Mater, Santa Rosa Science and Technology High School, which I (and will forever) fondly call by the moniker SayTek.  It has been three years since I last went up that stage, pretty much fucked up my speech only successfully concluding with the phrase that first popped into my mind when I was told that I would graduate as batch valedictorian that tearful and emotion-scrambling afternoon: "Aim high! Fly high! SayTek Hi!"


Back to the present. I'm all occupied with non-academic stuff that I ended up reading my blog posts from my Multiply account, nonchalantly while another batch of alumni register in my high school's registry of existing graduates. May they find their way in the harsh realities of life that they now face. College bites. Hard. And you only have seconds to recuperate. Hold on. Steadfast, you hold on. Never give up. Never walk astray. This is life after high school. Welcome to reality.


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Previous paragraph written in time with the music's tempo. No time to check it. Just my mind throwing up. 


Summer, please come. Or not. I have summer classes to busy myself while the Sol Invictus shine its brightest this year and the Azure Expanses is at its bluest. When will I ever get genuine happiness? When?


One more year.