I don't know if I heard it from a movie or from 'Homeland', one of the many series that contrive to destroy my future by grabbing every idle minute of my life to watch them. These things aside, the quote by which I have namesake-d this entry very sums up what happened today; at least to a specific aspect of my life, to be precise.
For a good third of my mortal existence in the face of this earth, I have expended effort to love you. Like you, at the very least. Feelings fluctuate, mine is definitely akin to the mood of a bipolar I disorder patient. All giddy just at the sight of the green dot beside your name in the chatbox of online friends to being apathetic at times. This endless cycle has gone on for quite a time, yet I never failed to feed it with more emotions until tonight. I have come into terms with what my emotions after a conversation with the consort of my dear friend. Guy's really good with this kind of thing having successfully captured the heart of my friend. Paradigm shift after giving his two cents. Am I that gullible? No. I just feel strongly of things that really hit me hard in the face. And this thing just bitch-slapped me so hard that my man-boobs concaved (haven't seen the movie yet but Pitch Perfect's trailer had me at stitches!). Long story short, I got over her. Although sparks will sure go flying whenever thoughts of her enter my mind, it will be pathetic sparkler-esque sparks that will go flying around, not sparks worthy of a pyrotechnic display. It may sound like high-school-going-college self saying it's all over after a month in the province again, but this time, I mean it.
What's next then? Follow good guy's advice: study while waiting for 'The One' to come by. Like what other dating books I have read before (which, by the way, is 'I Kiss Dating Goodbye' alone under that genre. Mind you, dear reader), prepare for Her. Be the best Man for Her by preparing yourself. Study. Devote yourself to something good. Be a holistic person. Those kind of things.
This is me, having ended a chapter in my life and turning a new leaf. :)
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