Because I am (half) anxious as fck.

Let's face it, fresh graduates of Bachelor of Science in Nursing who will be taking the boards in a week's time, we are under immense pressure to pass the Nursing Licensure Examination because we don't want to be the buena mano takers of the new set of Board of Nursing members for the December boards. Perils abound this season's examination, as well, as this will be the last set of questions that the incumbent and outgoing BON members will be administering to the thousands of aspiring nursing graduates of the God-graced archipelago of the Philippines. Who knows what sort of party-ender prank they're gonna pull on us? 

I bet you're drowning yourself in caffeine just like what I am doing as of the moment, pushing ourselves to inhumane limits knowing very well what kind of complications this acute bombardment of stressors in our body will arise sooner or later when our corporeal body seems to have had enough and decidedly thrown in its white flag. Remember to keep it all together lest you'll be like a toddler-demolished Lego building on the morning of the examination. Try tapering off yourself from that caffeine drip you've been hooking yourself every mor-night since who-knows-when. Hard to do me-self but I gotta get my mojo back before that nerve-wracking day. I don't want to get all constipated and polyuric and making a mess while on my white clinical uniform. 

For the past few weeks of review, despite the constant reminders of our reviewers of the number of days left before the boards, my ego seems to be very adept in deflecting this threat to protect itself, hence the confusing entry title. A part of me might be freaking out right now as the remaining time before that forsaken day drops from weeks to days while the other half is an apathetic prick that block the overwhelming fact. Gah, is this the taste of apathy? Well I don't want any bit of it. Mild anxiety, please set down upon me on the 2nd and 3rd of June  to get to that test taker's state without breaking down. 

Been expressive-aphasia-esque in writing blog entries for the past weeks which has been one of the best times of my life but sad to say that I haven't written down anything about it. Hoping this seemingly brain constipation starts to resolve starting with this incoherent yet expressive entry. Toodles! And back on that mug of coffee and stack of handouts I have to skim through.