As much as I want to name this entry properly, no words are worthy enough to encapsulate what this entry contains. Pretty much, it's my brain vomiting after ingesting loads and loads of things the past few days have come to offer.
Ever since I tried getting close to God, I always feel vulnerable. Bare from head to toe. Naked for all to see. I wear my heart upon my sleeves during those times, so to speak. And among the things I do (ironically) not want is feeling exposed (as to my ironic fear of the unknown which highly contradicts my very nature of seeking adventure. One helluva mixed up guy here!). But somehow, this sense of vulnerability provided me a perception of utmost comfort from this relationship which helped me get off some load that has been dragging me since I-don't-know-when. Thing is, I'm this kind of guy that has to get through this kind of things to get the hang of it. Let my mind wander off for a week or so and it would appear nothing happened at all. I am starting to sound senseless here (and I do hear myself getting senseless, too) so let's wrap this paragraph and move on to the next.
Looking back at the draft posts that, for some unholy reasons, never reached the day when the saving 'Publish' button has been clicked, it's rather sad that those posts convey messages of extreme fun, irrational anger, and - to some extent - sense of vulnerability. I guess this just shows how really hard it is to translate scrambled things up in your head into text that can be read by many. I'm all out of words to describe an indescribable feeling. Ay basta, speechless ako.
This clogged sinuses seems to be blocking the exit portal of my ideas. Compressing them further down my skull. Hopefully, getting a good night's sleep would do me good. Au revoir!
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