Cracks

There are cracks in the walls
In the ceilings and in the halls
The earth beneath us moves
Like a thundering of a thousand hooves

Here I am pushing you away
Just testing the limit, I pray
The Universe has given you to me
Yet here I am, trying to push thee

It is my little quirk here
To balance what good I endear
By making sure I suffer a price
Equivalent exchange, to put it nice(-ly)

Please forgive me that you have to endure this
And be on the edge of this abyss
I did not mean for this to happen
Let alone, for our love to be misshapen

My brain is winning over my heart
My rationality making quite a head start
The red flags I used to let slip by
That attitude now I have to say goodbye

You make me feel caged, restricted
This is not the love in my mind I depicted
You make me feel sorry for myself
I do not know if that's how one should feel for oneself

Perhaps the little sparrow inside
In freedom and flight takes pride
It yearns to fly across the sky
Untethered up high

But these are just the thoughts in mind
Among the many that are still undefined
I will focus to make them clearer
Like the view you see from a mirror